I got so frustrated yesterday, I cried on the job.
I’m frustrated with how slow things are going, and that it seems like almost everything I do, I need to re-do. I’d like to have just one week where I complete all (or even most of) my goals for the week. It hasn’t happened yet.
I’ve been working like a dog, doing very little else, and still, progress is creeping. I’ve worked at least ten hour days every day this week, yet still it feels inadequate. I feel I can’t keep up with fabrication, or contacts. There’s many emails I must respond to, and lots of sittin on ass work needed for the project. I feel I’m drowning in work.
My body is rebelling. Nearly every muscle is sore. I can’t find the energy I usually have. My muscles are growing though, and I’m slimming down.
But I am learning. A lot of this is new to me. So I can’t do it as fast as an experienced person. But I feel I should be learning FASTER, doing FASTER. It feels like anyone could be doing this faster than me.
Ok enough bitching. I have it pretty damn good. I’m living the life of my dreams. I just wish I could do a better job. Oh well, I’m sure I’ll be a much better fabricator after this is through.
Sorry, OSE, for taking so damn long.